It wasn’t new — a familiar combination of anger, rue, disappointment, and a general wanting I could go back and do items over again.
Amazing how very clear things can be at 6th: 30 on a November day in New England: calm streets, sun peeking within the horizon and glinting down boats at rest in the have, such peace.
I decided I had let this feeling get today, never to return. Inside the clarity of the crisp dawn air (leaves falling, concerning 38 degrees), I could observe events configured themselves in the past and led to what took place. As life events head out, this one had fairly low-impact, and it was a good possibility to practice.
Further along inside the walk, other thoughts in addition to associated feelings arose–a challenging work relationship, strained companionship, and concern for a relative among them.
I began to detect each feeling sooner, just before I was too far down the way of shenpa and its enclosed stuckness. Buddhists talk about seeing feelings arise, peak, as well as fade away. I understood. I became experiencing this phenomenon ?nternet site walked along. I noticed often the budding feeling, breathed within deeply, stayed with it (so very interesting) and observed it peak and fade.
This time of year, emotions abound, many I welcome and some I would rather avoid. Family get-togethers, weather-dependent travel and different traditions and customs offer you more practice opportunities when compared with perhaps I would wish for.
As my feelings continuing to arise, peak and also fade, I felt blessed that morning to have the connection with resistance, then connection, along with each one; of being present; observing them change and move ahead.
Conflict, stress, difficult relationships–it’s tempting to repress or maybe act the feelings in unhelpful ways. When I may be present instead, I have strength. There it is, there the item goes. Watching moment to moment. Certainly not taking me away from by myself, but showing me each of the ways I exist, withstand, feel, think, and search for perfection.
Maybe tomorrow I will not notice so soon, might be the feelings will overcome. And, I know what’s achievable. May I be grateful for each and every new opportunity to practice.
Wanting you peace and occurrence in this and every season on the year.